people change over time. it's sad as hell that it took a crack induced aneurism for you to change. worse is that it wasn't even a good change. there is no sympathy for someone who chooses the life you've chosen. you could have had a complete recovery and been a real father to your children. instead you chose what you've wanted your entire life. to do nothing and have the government support you while you feed off your elderly mother's protective bent for her 40 yo baby.
grow the hell up and get a job dip-shit.