Monday, March 24, 2014

how can i be so stupid?

9/29/2002

charlie found the tie off in the shower this morning. no matter who does the cutting i *know* to clean up. i *know* to hide the evidence. it's *my* responsibility. i *know* that it breaks charlie's heart and now he's standing in the shower in tears and it's my fault! can't stand to see/hear him cry. god it hurts so much! i'm so sorry charlie. i'm so sorry we're hurting you. i'm so sorry you have to live with this. i'm sorry you have to hurt with us. why can't loving someone protect them from hurting instead of causing it?

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